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A State of Mind

Posted: Thu Mar 17, 2016 1:04 am
by Te_Odio
Everything’s great.
Everything’s fine.
“I’m okay” I tell myself.
One more time.

“The voices have stopped”
That’s the lie I always tell.
“I’m feeling much better”
Yet they continue to yell.

I did what they wanted,
I took all those pills,
But nothing is working
Can’t get rid of these chills.

So I started to cut,
Ran the blade against my skin.
It was fun while it lasted,
But they said it’s a sin.

So they took them away,
My only friends,
And told me my habits,
Will come to an end.

I don’t understand,
What I did wrong?
I said I was sorry,
Will I stay here long?

Oh great they’re here.
They’re coming to get me.
“Help me!” I scream
So desperately.

Why isn’t anyone listening?!
I’m not insane.
They’re the bad guys not me!
Why am I contained?

Just because you can’t see them,
Doesn’t mean they’re not here.
They all around us,
They feed off of fear.

They took my blades,
So I started to scratch.
My nails tore up my flesh!
Good thing there’s nothing to snatch.

Maybe I am nuts?
Those whispers weren’t real.
Maybe they were just,
A projection of how I feel?

Well at least that’s what I told them,
Now deemed “cured” I’m free to go.
oh well it’s not my fault,
They didn’t want to know.

You see the whispers told me,
Secrets of another world.
A place full of wonder!
Like the story of Alice the little girl.

So I guess I’m ready,
I’ve met my fate,
Before I go let me chant,
For ol’ times sake.

Everything’s great.
Everything’s fine.
“I’m okay” I tell myself
One last time.

Re: A State of Mind

Posted: Sun Mar 20, 2016 2:14 am
by Kyritame2
Lol but not lol, its so true. Ive been in and when I told them why I did the things I was doing they told me I spoke lies... which is why I had never said anything before...

So to get out, I told them I was a liar, that noone was hurting me at home - I only wanted to cause them pain... but the therapy and meds were working and I again loved the person who had never hurt me.

And they let me leave. And they sent me back to the house where noone was hurting me, where I was not hurt over and over again, for five more years... Till they died. And when I turned 18, I ran from what was left of that house and realized that to this day - noone wants to hear how I was never hurt...

Re: A State of Mind

Posted: Mon May 09, 2016 8:57 am
by FallynSkies
Another amazing poem. XD I think we could be friends. Ha ha. Your writing is new to me, and yet feels extremely familiar in the ways that I write...

It's so sad. So sad to live this way. I know about being lost. About having stories you have to hide.

Keep writing. Your soul is within these words.

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Posted: Fri Nov 17, 2017 9:13 pm
by moongitaBog